How can i stop this horrible behavior?

ok so i was a recovering trichotillamaniac. for those of you who dont know what it is it's when you compulsively pull hair, kind of a type of OCD. anyways i was seeing a counselor for it because it hit my eyebrows and eyelashes hard, and im 15 so im sick of feeling like i have a mental problem by going to a counselor. so i just told myself i was done and i would never do it again. and for the first time in years i stopped completely for a month while battling horrendous urges to pull. my mom was pround and i was out of counseling. but then slowly i started to just lightly pull so all the dead ones would come out and i labeled what i was doing ok because they would have fallen out anyways. but i'm almost back to where i started. i guess my question is can someone relate and help me with some advice?